Although there are different ways to make a happy life, I believe that one of the keys is to become aware of the energy, spirit and consciousness in your body. When I started my quest 20 years ago, I didn’t really understand this. I half-heartedly tried to meditate and got mixed results.
Okay, to be honest, I couldn’t really sit still. Some people seem to do it easily and I just wasn’t one of those people. With practice, my mind did calm and I was able to discern different areas of consciousness, do some maneuvering and steady myself.
Over the years, I first learned to be conscious of my heart with some ease. Then, I worked at being present in my pelvis. Every time I became aware of a new place in my body, I also learned there was a natural order to things.
“The heart was for connection and a sense of self, the head for intricate thought and spiritual patterns, and the pelvis for creation and power.”
There was a real value to becoming aware of and connecting to different parts of my body. I had read that different parts of our bodies hold different types of information, but it was really something to see and feel it firsthand.
The body holds secrets. I was such a skeptic I would never have believed it. As time went on, I experienced a connection to God, the planet, other people, my ancestors, some things I understood and others I didn’t. I could sense and feel we are in a wonderful, delicate web that holds and sustains us. I gradually found my place in all that information.
“Living only in my head was a trap I didn’t know I was in.”
The more I became aware, the more life made sense. Things that bothered me stopped bothering me. I could gracefully accept more responsibility and power as my energetic body healed. I began to feel peace. I felt at home in my own skin for the first time.
Sounds good, right? Well, it wasn’t all easy. Sometimes I was aware of not so good things that other people and groups of people were creating. Their vibes could be harsh and the information I was picking up on under the surface didn’t feel good. I could see that talking bad about people, power plays, bullying and harmful intentions and energy were also part of the fabric of consciousness here. As I became aware of myself, I understood that these forces and information were interacting with my body and stressing me out even though I wasn’t aware of them before. I quickly realized that the more conscious I became, the more important it was for me to defend myself.
I started to see that I was broken in some areas and I learned how to assist my body in healing itself. It wasn’t always comfortable to feel places in myself which were dysfunctional. I had to invent tools and language to describe these places and what to do with them. There is a vulnerability to being conscious that I didn’t have to deal with when I was unaware. The information was always there, but becoming aware of it was intense. I was taking the load my body was under and learning how to manage it for myself.
I had to learn how to ‘read’ flows of energy that carried both good and bad things. The skills weren’t particularly difficult, but I sure could have benefited from a guide. A guide would potentially have saved me a lot of time in orienting and learning how to protect myself from things other people weren’t aware of. I was finally able to get my footing and I could stay present for longer periods of time. I noticed health benefits and other changes in me were only possible when I was aware or present for long periods of time. Short bursts weren’t enough. Being present for a class or a seminar for a few days wasn’t enough to create long term changes. My body needed consistent awareness to maintain and repair itself. My energy and spirit needed to be present for longer periods of time for magic to happen and I needed a skillset to do that.
Over time, this process changed my life. It was astoundingly beautiful, but there were skillsets that needed to happen to manage myself as present and vulnerable. I was sculpted by the forces I met and continue to meet. Being conscious isn’t always as easy as it may seem. It can be a struggle, confusing and painful to become aware of what is in you and around you. I am here to say it is worth it. I am so glad I hung in there.
When I see people walking out of their yoga class and rising to meet the challenges of the day, I believe they should have the tools to keep the power, awareness, calmness and connection they achieved in that setting to last throughout the whole day. It is possible. Keeping composure, remaining calm and present is the key but so is defending the state that has been achieved, repairing energy leaks and creating healthy relationships.
“Energetic street smarts are necessary to defend your work and your hard-earned connections.”
If I could go back, I would have cut way down on the time I spent learning by understanding the difference between the energetic and spiritual worlds and how to navigate them. Creating and managing awareness are the basic skills that are necessary to open us up to all that we are.
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